June 25, 2006

I Must Learn to Lighten Up, I Must Learn to Lighten Up, I Must...

This morning, Amba tells me how stress and depression are making me stupid. And Dilys tells me that I shouldn't try to get too deep. In the words of theologian Hans Urs von Balthasar:

Above all, we must not wish to cling to our suffering.

Suffering surely deepens us and enhances our person, but we must not desire to become a deeper self than God wills. To suffer no longer can be a beautiful, perhaps the ultimate, sacrifice.

There are those of us whose response to stress is to try to get deep. That's starting to seem stupid to me. And I'm feeling too stupid to say why.

I'd better go out and find some flowers to sniff or some water to look at or something.